What to be when I grow up

Growing up, I think almost every kid kind of knows what they want to bed when they grow up.  Well, in my case, I’m still trying to figure that out myself.  I knew at a young age, I’d either wanted to be a Chef and own my own restaurant, or a teacher.  Still, at almost 30 years old, I still have no clue to which direction I should gear my life towards.  I’ve been in ‘college’ for about four years now, but due to circumstances in my life, I couldn’t attend full time and here we are.  Still hoping and praying I’d be done soon so I can move on.

Growing up, I know I love food and I love to cook, but my question to myself was, do I really want to be a Chef as a career or do I really need to buckle down and find a career and maybe cooking would be a hobby instead?  Still trying to figure out what I want to do when I grow up is still a hard task if you are 18 and just graduated from high school or a 30 year old, like me.  It’s hard to swallow the ‘real world’ and I’m still trying to make good choices to have a good life.

Even though, I’m married with a family, it takes a toll in my life just trying to go through every day trying to understand what I want to do in life.  Yes, by all means, I would have loved to win that big Mega Millions this past week and make everything ok but my hopeful dreams may need to be on hold until that winning lottery ticket is in my pocket. 

Although life in general is a surprise, I have to take it by the balls and just roll with it.  I sometimes feel I want to give up and work in factory all my life, because it sounds easier than working hard towards my goals feels too much of a reach then reality.  Having a family and especially kids, change my perspective of what really matters in my life.  I think to myself, I need to set a great example for them and make sure they see how hard I work so they can see that life doesn’t come on a silver platter.  Only I can make a difference in my life and change what my parents weren’t fortunate enough to give me.

Now the question is, what should I be when I grow up?  That’s still a lingering question but hopefully something will help guide me to what I’m meant to do and be in like…..Hopefully soon!